Automism

October 21st 2004

Had a stroke:

Went on an airplane trip to Montreal
Was intimidated by weird, tough looking guy next me that started arguing with me about how far Chilliwack was from Vancouver. He told me he would smash my head through the airplane window. Sat rather quietly and still
Developed a blood clot
4 days later while sitting on the toilet that blood clot was pushed through the hole and into my brain
Felt like the worst drunk ever—the anti-drunk. Spinning, aphasia, falling into walls. I have never chosen to get really drunk again it is just way to close
I am better now—-not as healthy as a I should be but better.

Jan 2010 St Paul’s

I cant stand up. I have been throwing up with Norwalk all night as you are being born. Your mothers eyes now are filled with pain and fear..it is almost time. I see your hair I sit down and there you are.

At one point during the day I look at the windows and notice it is January 10th. Our birthday.

Victoria 1986

The most exciting movie I have seen, Raw Deal. i was 14 and it was R—one lenient chaperone and we sat watching Arnold shot up meeting rooms with Uzis

Guatemala 1992

A friend died in Guatemala when I was 18. We were all stunned, everything quaint and rustic grated. A man offered to pay my way home. In the embassy the a women yelled at her kids to keep away from us…maybe we were sick…

Zaire 2004

Man on the border town near kalame drops his pants, falling into the shackles on his feet. He points at us, yelling ” why did you leave me in Chicago” We walk away closer to the Zaire border.